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Forgive Me [Male!Belarus x Reader]

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    “Oi. Wake up sleepy head.”

    Rubbing his eyes as his vision cleared, Nikolai came face-to-face with a [EyeColor] eyed girl. Looking around, he remembered he was on the school roof hiding under the shadowed area of the rafters. It was a warm summer day today, and he had to take off his uniform jacket if he didn’t want to bake in the sun. Brushing a bead of sweat from his hairline, he grumbled, “What are you doing here? Aren’t you going to eat lunch with that stupid American and his friends?”

    Turning to his side, he tried his best to fall asleep again. [Name] however, wouldn’t allow this to happen. “What? Are you jealous? Or maybe it’s the heat…that always gets you bothered,” she grinned, sitting in front of him with her legs crossed.

    Shooting her a dark look like an irritated cat, he ran his fingers through his hair.

    “What if I told you that I was talking with Anya this morning?” [Name] innocently placed a hand on her leg and cupped her cheek with her other hand while looking at Nikolai smugly.

    His ears pricked up, as his violet orbs flicked upwards to train on [Name]’s grinning face.

    “What did you say?” he asked, pushing the overwhelming curiosity as far down as he could.

    [Name] tapped her chin as her [EyeColor] eyes looked upwards as if she wanted to find the answer up in the clouds. “Hmm…oddly enough, I don’t seem to remember,” she replied.

    The country trained his gaze on the girl, as he simply answered, “Tell me or I’ll tickle you to death.”

    He smirked, satisfied, when he noticed that [Name] had noticeably cringed as if stung.

    “Fine,” she huffed, brushing a lock of [HairColor] hair behind her ear, “I told her how her little brother is a complete creep with his abnormal obsession with her and that he was like a panda-cat hybrid! Lazy and overly proud, that little scumbag-”

    “Okay, I’ve heard enough,” he announced, his deadpanned expression making [Name] laugh a bit. Leaning his head against the wall, he closed his eyes and tried to escape his own thoughts for a while.

    “Hey, you know…”

    Facing her, he opened his eyes a little as he watched her fidget. She was staring at him in a way that made him almost want to blush. Weird.

    “You should just tell Anya straight out how you feel. I don’t really get how these country relationships work, but they can’t be too different from regular human ones,” she straightened out her red plaid skirt as she stood, extending her hand out as if she wanted a handshake.

    “Lunch is almost over, tell her now before class starts,” she offered her hand again. This time, he took it, smiling slightly when he almost pulled her down instead of
 
    [Name] pulling him up. Walking with a slight bounce in her step, she talked animatedly, “Act cool about it. Don’t act like a crazed fangirl talking to her one and only senpai for the first time. Be honest though, girls will like a guy who’s sincere. If you do chicken out though, which you probably will- knowing you, my long term advice is to act friendly with other girls too. I’m sure Anya would be more interested if you didn’t harass her 24/7 about becoming one…”

    Stopping, [Name] turned to smile up at Nikolai. “There she is, at her locker. She’s alone, offer to carry her stuff and walk her to class or something. There’s only a few more minutes before class starts. Go!”

    “What about you?” he asked, eyes crinkled in worry.

    “Look, I’m glad you care about me and all, but this is a chance not meant to be wasted!” she argued as she gave him a poke in the chest.

    “Come with me,” he commanded, grabbing her wrist firmly. He couldn’t admit the anxiety that he felt. [Name] helped calm him down… without her, he probably couldn’t even form a coherent though around Anya. [Name] was his anchor.

    Blushing, she shook her head as the passerby whispered excitedly as the possibility of new gossip topics. The corridor was filling up quickly, as lunch ended and students filed through doors and headed to class.

    As he looked up however, he caught sight of Anya with another male. She turned and kissed the unknown guy before turning to meet Nikolai’s gaze.
Without thinking, he leaned down to cup [Name]’s face in his hands before kissing her as delicately as he could. His pulse thudded in his ears, as his mind raced a mile a minute. What was he doing? Why was he kissing [Name], his best friend?

    She was the first one to pull away, while Nikolai tried to escape his half-awakened state. As he opened his eyes, he found that everyone had already gone and that the two of them must be late for class by now while he was caught up in…other things.

    “Well that was a way to kill off any chance you had with Anya,” [Name] smiled, but he could tell it was forced.

    He tried to apologize, but she cut him off with a simple, “I don’t want you to use me as the rebound girl.”

    Then she turned and walked away.



~Time Skip~



    For the past few days, Nikolai couldn’t stop noticing [Name] almost everywhere. His heart couldn’t help but twist in jealousy whenever she laughed with the American or acted friendly with the British man. He no longer seemed to think about Anya, since his mind was so occupied with his overwhelming sense of loss without [Name] and the weird feelings that bloomed in his chest whenever he thought of her.

    He hadn’t meant to use her in any way at all, but it sure seemed that he had. Nikolai wanted to apologize, because he was foolish enough to only just realize how important [Name] was to him. Slipping his hand into his pocket, he flipped the small piece of paper between his fingers in anxiety. As he approached her locker, he pushed the note into the slits of the locker and walked away before anyone noticed.



~Time Skip~



    “I’m sorry.”

    He stared at her, hoping she could see that he truly felt horrible. Even if it meant she couldn’t return his feelings, it would mean so much to him just to be able to see her and talk to her every day. [Name] shook her head, backing up and away. His heart hurt, but he still clung onto a strand of hope. She had come to meet him, that had to mean something, hadn’t it?

    “I don’t want you as a rebound, I truly care for you. And it’s taken me this long to figure it out, but I just want you to know that I love you [Name]. I really do.”

    She faltered, round [EyeColor] eyes leaking with tears and she laughed, "I can't believe I'm still in love with you after all this..."
   
    Nikolai rushed forward to embrace her, her body fitting perfectly in his. He brushed the tears away, smiling gently as he kissed the top of her head.

    “Please forgive me for this,” he whispered as he leaned in closer to meet her lips.




~Fin~
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I trieeeeed TT^TT Nikolai why you so hard to write for?!
Hope I didn't utterly fail! :dummy:

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ggchan's avatar
the picture above scares me. Idk why but imagine staring for five minutes and he would suddenly blink O.o 

anyways it's really good