Daylight [Edward Elric x Reader]

~Edward's POV~

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Here I am waiting, I’ll have to leave soon, why am I holdin’ on?
We knew this day would come, we knew it all along
How did it come so fast?
This is our last night, but it’s late and I'm tryin’ not to sleep
‘Cuz I know, when I wake I will have to slip away
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I sighed, staring at you. I didn't want to lose a second. You were asleep, breathing in and out in little puffs. To me, it was the most adorable thing in the entire world. Soon, you'd have to leave and I would lose you. So why was I still here, praying with all my heart that this was all a nightmare? You avoided the subject all along, only letting it come full force on me recently. Drowsiness hit me, and I almost shut my eyes to embrace the sleep, then I remembered you and your bright [EyeColor] eyed smile. Pinching myself in the arm, I sat up and looked back towards you again. Stay awake Edward Elric. How can I even call myself The Fullmetal Alchemist if I can't even stay awake?

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And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
But, tonight I’m ‘gonna hold you so close
‘Cuz in the daylight, we'll be on our own
But, tonight I need to hold you so close
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa

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I moved over to wrap my arms around you, feeling your form against me. Could you hear my heartbeat in your sleep? It was a question that slowly crept into my mind. You were so warm, that I almost fell asleep again. I threaded your fingers in mine and laid our intertwined hands against my cheek, treasuring your presence.

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Here I am staring, at your perfection in my arms; so beautiful.
The sky is getting bright, the stars are burnin’ out.
Somebody slow it down.

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I can feel it, the ray of sunlight peeking in through your window. It hits me, it's morning. Walking over to the window, I see that the stars are fading, morning is coming so fast...how was that possible? Instinctively, I prayed for someone to stop time, just freeze it in this moment so I could be with you forever and stop this growing black hole of pain in my broken heart.

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This is way too hard, ‘cuz I know when the sun comes up I will leave
This is my last glance that will soon be memories

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I looked over to you and your face. Memorize it. If only before I go...if only you could say those three words that I've always wanted to hear...
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And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
But, tonight I’m ‘gonna hold you so close
‘Cuz in the daylight, we'll be on our own
But, tonight I need to hold you so close
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa

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Memorize it. The smell of your hair, the way your body felt in my arms. All of it...why oh why was this so complicated?

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I never wanted to stop, because I don't want to start all over, start all over
I was afraid of the dark, but now it’s all that I want, all that I want, all that I want

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Old memories, they hit me so hard. I had no choice but to resurface into them and just go through the flashback...
I was sitting in a dark alleyway, my arms around myself as though of I let go then I would fall apart. Pain. That was the only thing I felt. It was too much, I felt like screaming. What was I to do after? Keep screaming until my throat bled? That felt like a better option considering to the remorse eating me away.
Then you appeared. You had called me by my name and I had looked up to you with surprise. Giving me a bright smile, your [EyeColor] sparkled and asked me what I was doing all alone. I couldn't speak. My throat hurt, it was so dry.
You persisted, trying to reassure me that even though we were complete strangers you would listen to my troubles. I told you about it. About her and him. About them...together...leaving me. The pain eased a bit, but I felt the sadness rising into my throat, choking me. I stopped and looked down.
The next move you made shocked me. You were hugging me. The warmth of another person...I was so cold...warmth...you were my warmth...
You understood me.

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And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
But, tonight I’m ‘gonna hold you so close
‘Cuz in the daylight, we'll be on our own
But, tonight I need to hold you so close

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Then that day came. We were hanging out around the lake that was on the outskirts in the more rural areas. We were laughing together, skipping stones and commenting on the occasional butterfly or bird that passed us. The urge came.
It was the perfect moment as well, you turned to ask me something. I did it. I slipped my hand over yours and kissed you. It was like heaven to me, but a part of me was frightened. What of you didn't feel the same way? I tried to urge some reaction from you, but you were still. No reaction.
When I finally pulled away admitting my defeat, I apologized. You just smiled and said it was alright. No comment. What were you thinking?
Days from there just got worse. I didn't see you as much. You were shrouded in mystery. I knew you were the daughter of the [LastName] family, you were known for being a rich and powerful family. But they loathed State Alchemists. You were friends with me though...was that a sign that I was different?

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And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
But, tonight I’m ‘gonna hold you so close
‘Cuz in the daylight, we'll be on our own
But, tonight I need to hold you so close
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa
Oh whoa, (yeah) oh whoa, (yeah) oh whoa (yeah) (yeah)
Oh whoa, (yeah hey) oh whoa, (yeah hey) oh whoa

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It's too late. I broke out from my flashback and stood up. I couldn't stay any longer. I shrugged on my coat and headed to the window to make my escape, my heart ripping apart painfully.
"E-Edward?"
Your voice. I swallowed, my hands clenching into fists. You were calling me. I turned, putting on a forced smile that probably looked more like a grimace. "[Name]," I replied back, choking on my grief.
You reached out for me, still half-asleep. I backed away. "Goodbye [Name]. You're leaving, and I have to go before I get you in trouble."
"Ed! Wait please!"
I strides up to you and have you a small peck on the cheek. Smile Edward Elric. I did, chuckling and tousling your hair while the inside of me was bleeding in pain.
"See ya [Name]. It was nice meeting you. Have a great trip."
You called my name again, but it was too late. I leapt out the window and stealthily found my way goths exit. Then I blended into the crowd and tried not to attract any unwanted attention.
Letting a single tear slip out from under my bangs I whispered-
"I love you [Name]. I'm so sorry."

~Fin~